So, thus far (as of May 9, 2011) I started writing in this blog twice. I wrote re-cap/intro type blogs both times. You can read about my first attempt here: 21-5-800, and my second/re-visit here: Re-calculating.
Basically, over the past few years, I've felt a desire to blog, not just journal-write. And there is definitely a difference. Journaling are your deepest thoughts and reflections, ones that you're not usually content to share with people...mostly because you're not even sure what they mean. Or at least, that's been my experience. Journaling is more, "in the moment," exactly what you're feeling, un-edited. Sometimes it proves worthwhile and you actually end up sharing it with people (either through talking or other venues) and sometimes it's just something you needed to experience just for yourself. In my mind, the latter is journaling. The former is where the blogging comes in. I've kind of felt this desire to talk about what's been going on in my life and to share some of my experiences. Which is kind of a new feeling for me because, for as long as I can remember, I lean more towards introspection and being a hermit. Though I know I wasn't always that way...my mom didn't give me the nickname "social butterfly" when I was a kid for no reason! But, as life happened, I leaned in more of the other direction.
Anyways, I guess all of these attempts at blogging are an attempt to balance the extroverted part of me that wants to share my life with the introspective part of me that likes her privacy.
About the name:
Currently, it is labeled "Untitled," simply because I have no idea what to call it. When I started out, it was "Tara in Limbo," because that's where it felt like I was. I still tend to feel like I'm in that place, but not as much as I used to, I've gradually been finding how exactly I fit into this world, though often times it does seem to straddle different roles and contexts, so maybe "limbo" is still appropriate! A different blog I attempted was called "Tara's Space," that I created as a way to keep in touch with friends and family while I was recovering from a foot surgery, courtesy of a running-induced injury, but that name never felt right. And, once I was back at work after surgery, I no longer really felt the need to write on that blog since I was back among co-workers and friends. For a while, this blog served as a place for me to talk openly about my yoga practice and musings on the projection of my life, but, again (over the last 4 years) that has shifted. I am continue to grow even more dedicated to the yoga practice, but I feel less inclined to write about it, preferring to just simply experience it, rather than analyze it, similar to how I feel about blogging about my life.
So, as of right now, it's "Untitled," because I have no idea what to call it. And I kind of like it. It's versatile. I'm not obligated to talk about any one specific thing because of the name of the blog, and it can change and grow with me. That definitely works for now.
