Saturday, December 31, 2011
Easing into 2012
I love Garfield. I read that in the Boston Herald newspaper yesterday and it really resonated with how I'm feeling about the coming year. At the start of last year, there was a lot that needed to change in my life. The big change of course was the new job, but a lot of 2011 was about letting go of a lot of things and not resisting the changes as they came. In 2010 I was holding on to my yoga practice way too tight, refusing to let it change in any way that I didn't want it to. My then-boss had said that I was dictating my whole schedule and forcing everyone else in the office to work around it. Ironically, this year, in order to go deeper into my practice via the teacher training, I had to be willing to let it go, to let it change in ways that I wasn't actively pursuing. With the new work schedule and the addition of dog-walking and dog-sitting, I suddenly was not able to practice with as wide a variety of teachers and classes as I used to. At first I was bummed out because I had grown close to a couple of the teachers. But, it was a change that definitely needed to happen (it kind of seems like that's how all unplanned life changes seem to be) and that I was ready for. My Ashtanga practice became my home, the place where everything that I learned from the training and all my past teachers had a chance to actually integrate--rather than constantly bouncing between classes and teachers and taking in new information.
Now, my practice is at a place that feels more sustainable and more intelligent and mature. And so does my life, for now at least. It still feels like there are some significant changes waiting just on the horizon for me next year (I've heard that's kind of a given when you start really practicing the Intermediate Series, lol) and I'm really curious to see where my practice goes and what changes will come in my life next year. But it doesn't feel like there's anything that I have to actively "do" or change. No big "resolutions" or intentions. Just keep doing what I'm doing but be alert and open to changes when they come. Even my body is on the same page for this one...yesterday I started fighting a cold. Nothing huge, just enough to sap my energy. So, no midnight yoga class or party with friends. Sleeping, that's probably what I will be doing during the transition from 2011 to 2012, lol. My first practice of 2012 will probably not be some grand feat of physical strength or endurance. No 2 hour Yoga Mala (108 suns) like last January. Though it might be heated because it feels like my body needs it to help sweat out whatever has taken up residence in my body, lol. We'll see how it goes ;-)
See everyone in 2012!